My Life

Drama -_- tired of it!

2009-04-25T12:52:00.000-07:00

K, so I have decided to wait and just be a kid before I get into acting, to get more expirence and everything.
I also am debaiting on posting some of my songs on youtube. So I don't know.
No one has ever heard me sing (except my cousin) she said I'm good but I don't think so. Well, we'll see.
Another thing is my problem with my dad, how he's not open minded (like my brother) and is so old school, I mean where a dress when you clean the house, cook for me, do everything for me and agree with everything I say.
I wish my grandmother would've raised him better and not got into his head like she always does. Wish she wouldn't stick her nose where it doesn't belong aswell.

Oh! I almost forgot, just yesterday we went to best buys and got a PS3.
So yay!

It seems as though nothing can describe my erg to become an actress.

2008-12-31T17:30:00.000-08:00

I took my picture
and sent it just today even though it's late I know, and I was working on my resume for months....I am praying for a part in the new show. An audition would even make me happy! So I'll continue to pray, until the day I receive the phone call. I am so excited, although half of me says, "You'll never make it, other people have a better chance than you." Then the other half says, "If you were able to convince your parents, and get them to allow you, then you must have a good shot at this." While the other half says, "I don't know, what happens will happen if it's meant to be." So I'm just praying, and even feel lucky being able to send it, and all."
Also, it's new years tomorrow!
And I'm hopping for a new beginning!
My New Year's resolution:
1.) To not be as shy
2.)To become an actress
3.)(If that never happens) Study hard and work on plays, maybe still audition for shows or movies.
I just hope this year, will be the year I'm waiting for. I don't want to let anytime pass by, I will do what I can (or have to) in order to be on a show. I've been waiting to long to give up now.
The only thing, is it's up to the casting director... I just hope and pray, immensely much that it will come true. (Words cannot describe my desire to be an actress...it seems as though nothing can)

Auditions

2008-12-10T17:06:00.000-08:00

I heard there were auditions for a new show and I want to audition, but it seems so hard because my dad keeps saying yes, no and then he keeps making excuses not to take me. I would LOVE to audition, it's everything I've wanted, I've seen other girls want to audition too, but that's why I have to do my VERY best and so I hope I get a chance to audition and everything!

This time I am putting my foot down and my dad has to act like a real dad for the first time in his life (not the first time, but when I was little he was usually not there) So no one is going to tell me what I can't and can be, I'm tired of listening to people, I AM NOT GOING TO "Give up" like my mom said, I am going to try to get my dad to trust me because I know what I'm doing.

I want to be something that I'm good at and have LOVED since I was a little girl, and my parents said I can audition if I do chores, and I have been and they NEVER keep there promise, well not any more, they have to or else.

I know you might think, Man she's braty, yes, my sister says that but I try not to be and I'm not all that braty. It's something I'm sure I want. I am going to work so hard for it, I am going to do the best I can, so much that people will probably think something of me, but I don't care, because I'm tired of waiting, I'm tired of being a loner, and am especially tired of being a nerd....or whatever they say about me.

I want this audition really, really, really, badly! Words can't even express how much I want it!

YAY!!!

2008-11-26T13:19:00.000-08:00

I FINALLY got the ink, and I made my resume and everything and I have my picture! I want to send it to disney channel and see if I can find any open auditions....so YAY! I'm happy! ^_^ ^.^
My Steps
(****=done! :))
1.Get the ink ****
2.Take picture ****
3.Get my picture ****
4. Mail it!
5. See if they contact me
6.See any open auditions and audition
7. Get in
8. Start JOB! ^_^

The thing that amazes 0_0 me most is the fact that I'm actually doing it and so if I can do that, I figure I might have a shot at this!

I am now 14 (it's hard typing on a texting phone my dads)

2008-11-13T14:14:00.000-08:00

O.k I finally got the hang of the texting thing, So I turned 14 on Veterins day, but. I was sick so, yeah it stunk, but at least I got a b-day cake! Anyway, I FINALLY have enough money for the yellow ink! In Los Vegas my mom got the black ink. We played the demo of rock band 2 there!

So also I learned how to download stuff on the phone. And I got the picture I took to go on my resume and downloaded it onto the computer that has the printer! So I'm basicaly set I just need the ink! EEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!

EEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!! Oh (updated today Nov. 15, 2008) I told my dad if he can take me to the one place were they sell ink and he said yes since he's here right now I have GOT to make him not forget or get TOO comfy or else he won't take me!!!!!!!!!!!

YAY!!!

2008-11-06T19:37:00.000-08:00

Really quick!
I'm turning 14 in November 11!!!
I don't want to!!!
Yes, in veterins day!
The GOOD NEWS..........There's NO SCHOOL on my b-day!BAD NEWS.............I'm going to be 14!
Not 13 ANYMORE *Cries*
Oh well............I'll live my last 7 days like as if I was never going to see tomarow again(even though time goes by so fast)

*sigh* Oh well

Good news! Obama WON!!! WHOOO!!!

Ok also my mom got the black ink! All I need is yellow! EEEE!!!!
YAY!!!!!! I'M SO HAPPY!!!!!!!! And I'm not a loner at school (anymore)!

P.S: I've been practicing singing and I think I sound better! ^_^

My collage

2008-10-30T17:06:00.000-07:00

Quick........

2008-10-14T16:29:00.000-07:00

Another quick update.....................

Have you ever been called a nerd??? That's what someone said they called me but I dunno...I know I'm a loner and sick of it. The thing that stinks is in school I'm always left out.....always. Which stinks.

Well whatever, I'm still waiting for my dreams to come true and doing something about it! ^_^

ღNowღ

2008-10-11T12:49:00.000-07:00

ღO.k so just a quick update............... ღ
I'm still waiting for the ink.....and I'm going to save money for it like I said in my post and I hope I'll get in.
But my mom doesn't care she thinks.....ah...what ever she's not gonna make it she'll forget about it later........well.......NO!
Like she told me to give up.........welllll...................NO!
ღღღNEVER!!!!!ღღღ

Struggles

2008-10-10T22:14:00.000-07:00

So I always talk about my dream of being an actress, but never the struggles my family and have faced, sure they might not be as bad as other people that might have struggles more, but here it is, all our struggles this year 2008.......
1) We were loosing our home because of the bills and everything
2) We kept moving trying to do anything to get out of debt.
3) We lost our beautiful house (I still miss it) and I noticed we were spoiled brats before and should of appreciated the things we had.
4) We didn't have anywhere to go, so we stayed with our cousins for a while until our grandmother was nice enough to let us stay at her OTHER house and rent, yes she has two houses.
5) Our uncle kicked us out of the house.
6) We moved to an apartment and started appreciating everything we got.
And that brings us to now.
I'm hoping to get an audition with Disney channel to help my family and if the lord blesses me and helps me get in, I'll try not to get greedy. Another thing I didn't tell you guys is also I want to make speeches to help people with there own struggles and boost them up, or maybe even a club or something......life is filled with obstacles, once we over come them, we become stronger and wiser.
There is nothing I rather do than act, also maybe sing, but I dunno I'm still testing my voice and so far so good.
If you want something badly enough, or/and if it's just a dream, why not make it real. Oh and you'll also find some sayings and quotes of mine and other famous people, that I hope inspire you.

When someone pushes you down, come back up, and
show them they were wrong.

Update.

2008-10-01T19:21:00.000-07:00

O.k I'm STILL waiting for the ink......and there's this project coming up that my teachers going to video tape us and I'm using that for a practice to not get nervous around a camera so I can be prepared for the audition.........if I ever get one.

And I'm done with my resume and I have the envelope.
I'm practicing on singing for the audition.............I think I sound like a little girl but I'm still going to try to get my voice as trained as I can.

So this is an update.

My Boring Life

2008-09-29T13:59:00.000-07:00

My mom said to wait alittle because she has to pay the bills and so forth so I'm waiting for the ink to the printer so I can print my picture to the resume. So I'm just waiting nothing new.........but I am on the following sites:
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Deviantart (polarbear83)
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Sheezyart (polarbear83)
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Neopets (I havn't gone on as much) (angel_cup)
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Freewebs (NeoVision)
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And that's about it. ^_^
O.k so bye I'll continue with my boring life of waitng.

Story:

2008-09-27T15:10:00.001-07:00

Here's my story so you don't have to go to the other site if you don't want to:

ღMy Blogღ

I have a dream of being an actress but my dad or mom won't let me they don't think I can do it, but I know I can and I'm so tirred of everyone saying to be something else. I also don't know if I am ment to be an actress but one thing I know is to never give up. And I never do so I'll keep my head up and hopefully one day my dreams will come true................I hope.

They don't think I can do it because I'm shy (but I'm getting over it) and my mom says she supports me, but if my dad doesn't and or is not able to take me to L.A, then I should find another job, but I won't. And I know I can make it because I want it more than anything in the whole wide world.

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Second part (most recent) :

GUESS WHAT!!!!!!!
O.k I asked my dad if I can audition for disney channel and my dad said yes. Although my mom was giving me a lecture about why am I not doing what I'm suppose too, and all that. So I made a resume and I'm going to send it to disney channel and I just need some batteries for the camera, but most of all INK (our printer ran out) and then I'll send it. Hopefully they'll get it and let me audition and if I get the part, I can be on disney channel!!!!!!! EEEEEE!!!!!!!

New!

2008-09-26T21:59:00.000-07:00

This is my first blog here :

O.k so I want to be an actress REALY BADLY.
But not just for any company, for disney channel

Full story here:
www.neovision.webs.com
Then click on my blog

SO now I feel like I'm acually ment to be an actress! I feel good about myself for once! ^_^